a brighter discontent

Leaving for Las Vegas on Friday!!

Still in shock at how well the "trial transfer" went on Tuesday. Absolute bloody shock. I couldn't feel a THING. Literally. It was....less than a pap. And paps don't even bother me. So....yeah..... Crazy. I'd love to know why this trial transfer went so smoothly and the other one was so horrid. Better doctor? My cervix is all stretched out from the twin miscarriage? (I was basically in labour for hours/days with that as I had a "natural" miscarriage at home) I wish I knew, but I'm so relieved that I can look forward to a smooth transfer now.

I'm actually really looking forward to the actual transfer now, which is kind of nice. That's a first for me.

Oh, but the Perc.ocet made me throw up. That was kind of funny. We had to pull over on Deer.foot Trail (a huge, major freeway here) so I could throw up on the side of the road. Kind of funny, actually. That's the first time I've ever had that happen to me. That's now the second time I've thrown up in one week. (I was horribly ill with some kind of flu while we were on vacation last week) Prior to that? I hadn't thrown up in over six years since I had an allergic reaction to cooked salmon. I didn't even throw up when I was pregnant. So, hopefully all the vomiting is out of my system now!

I think I'll just take a couple of at.ivan so I'm very chill for the transfer, but no Perc.ocet. And obviously I don't really need it anyway.

Other good news:

I just tried on a little black dress that I haven't worn in over six years (since before I was married). It FITS and looks awesome! So excited, as now I have another dress I can take to Vegas with me! SWEET!!

Also, a very expensive dress that I got for $10 bucks several weeks ago that I didn't try on it, also fits perfectly, which is also pretty awesome.

Seriously, if anyone wants to become healthier or lose a bit of weight easily, just stop eating meat! Wow, it's crazy how easy it is to lose weight when you stop eating animals. My husband dropped over 25 pounds when he stopped eating meat, and he wasn't overweight to begin with! But he looks even better now, and is feeling so much healthier. I don't know how much weight I've lost since I don't weigh myself, but quite a bit, I'd imagine....at least 20 pounds I'd guess? Most of clothes don't fit, so I have bought some new ones, or dug out my clothes from when I was a "normal" size. (my thyroid issues over the last few years haven't helped at all with my weight, either.) Also, the Wii Fit informs me that my BMI is in the "normal range", ha! lol

The other good news is that I leave for Vegas this Friday! I'm going with a girlfriend (the one I mentioned in my other blog post, the only friend in this city that knows about the upcoming FET), and we're not bring any husbands. So, girls only trip! It will be fun. We don't come back until Tuesday night.

I have so much to do before going though. I have to work tomorrow, but I have a lot of business stuff upcoming for my jewelry, as well. I have a couple of wholesale orders to deal with soon, plus I'll be doing an art market out in Priddis in July. Oh yeah, and we are doing the FET probably the first week of July, I'd imagine. You know, because I'm crazy, and I can never just do ONE thing at a time, right?!

So, what's up with everyone else? Anyone have any crazy Perc.ocet or At.ivan stories to share? (The thing about throwing up on the side of the road from Perc.ocet when you already have taken At.ivan means you just don't care, which is kind of awesomely hilarious!)

P.S. I have to take the Lu.pron with me to Vegas -- does anyone know how long Lu.pron can go unrefrigerated? I'll probably have to take a small cooler or something with me, hey? That will suck....

They didn't kill me after all

It's hard to know what the difference was this time. The "mock transfer" attempt by my doctor in 2005 nearly killed me. I still have never experienced that much pain. I'm not sure if even the twins miscarriage compares, or the o.varian can.cer. Both of those were worse because the lasted for such a long time. But the trial attempt in Seattle was short-lived, but absolutely agonizing. So, what's different this time? Obviously: different doctor Three years, and three miscarriages Perc.ocet and at.ivan as opposed to being completely unmedicated? My totally ambivalent attitude? I'm not sure. But it was nice not to feel like I was being murdered on the table. And it's nice to know that I can look forward to the real transfer without much drama or hassle. That will be a refreshing change. Maybe the doctor I had in the US really sucked at doing transfers?!? Who knows. I know he does nearly all the procedures there under sedation. I think the Perc.ocet made me throw up though. So I think I might do the actual transfer with just a couple at.ivan. At least I know I don't get any weird reactions from at.ivan. Leaving for Las Vegas in three days...soooo not ready yet!!

Waiting in clinic now, hope they don't kill me

Many mishaps and screwups along the way, but Im here, with lovely perco.cet.

Wish me...luck? ...for tomorrow...

Ugh. So, the stupid trial transfer is tomorrow morning. (Tuesday) I feel...ambivalant about it, and I'm surprised. I thought I would be freaking out the night before, and I'm not. Am sort of dreading it, but haven't been dwelling on it. I did put up a bit of a fuss with my doctor, and I demanded SOME kind of drugs for it. So she's written me a script for perc.ocet 3. Apparently it's the kind of painkillers people get addicted to, so, yay for good drugs at least! I already have a prescription for at.ivan, which I might take on the way to the clinic. I'm supposed to take the perc.ocet one hour before the procedure. I'm trying to be hopeful that the trial will go smoothly, because I don't want to have to do anything crazy to prepare for the actual transfer. I've been on Lu.pron for just over a week now. Mild bruising, but other than that, no side effects, as usual, which is kind of nice. I started low dose asp.irin last month already. I still haven't told anyone about this cycle. The only people who know are my two best friends out of town, and one good friend here. The friend I told here, is trustworthy, and actually infertile herself. My only IF friend in "real life"!! She actually has her first consultation at my clinic later this month. Poor thing. I also told her because she and I are going to Las Vegas this Friday, and obviously I'll be on meds while there, so it's just easier to have her know. Anyway, I'm keeping this short as I'm posting from iPhone for the first time. If there's any typos.....I blame the iPhone!!